Time To Think~~~~

Did nothing but think today. Oh and enjoy today off from work. I did do some thinking on my life. I was reading blog and it had me thinking about my single state and wondering when I am going to meet my "Adam". Also, thinking about school and work. Today was think day. God may drop in my spirit about my gift and callings. So, research time. I really want better relationship with God. It time to Get Busy and Enjoy Life.

Brand New, the newness!!!!!

Ok, its been a year since I last blog and alot has happen. I was reading a blog on my weight 270lbs. I put I pick up twenty more pounds since then. I pick the picture of New Beginning because I am doing a new thing. I live in depression for a while and low self-esteem. I was killing myself everyday by not care about my health and future. Now, I am shifting into new beginnings. I let to much of my life past me by. It's my time to shine and I don't want to be in this state at 32yrs of age. SOOOOOO, what I am doing different this time. I started to go to counseling and work on these mental issue that I am having to deal with all these years. I keep letting my past run me and it time for to run it. I started focus on my weight and working out. Counting the cost on the food and watching what I am putting in my mouth. Spending time in God word and praying. Yes, I still face issue but I am not dwelling in the foolishness of it. Also, I notice that spending to much time on social media can bum you out. I started to compare my life to other people life. I was feeling like I was nothing. Facebook, Twitter and etc are fun to be on but waste of time. There are so much people who lost there self on it. There is not value to it. Trust me it is good platform for business, networking and good for meeting people. It is damage control on the mind and heart. Time to change and it starts today. IT'S MY TIME TO SHINE!!!!!!!!

MOney, Help!!!!

Ok, Why! I can be fruitful and wasteful at the same time. I love deals and barging. So, Borders is going out of business and I purchase three books. Why? I have three big tubs of books and five looking at me right now. Plus, the three books I just purchase. My God I need to cut this out for real. All the debt and etc I have. I have so much other things to do with my money. On top of that, my bank is switching to Well Fargo and they are charging extra $6 dollars for using my visa card and thank God my checks are direct deposit. Because they are charging $7.50 if your balance is under $500. How are banks helping us? It was a great thing for free checking and now charges us for keep and account. I know me at this point; I can't keep $500 in the bank all the time, YET!!! (BUT I WILL SOON). Plus, all banks are doing this process. By November 2011, banks will go back to charging you to keep your money. So what now? I am really thinking about going old school, under the mattress. It won't hurt me because I pay some of my bills by money order. Better paper trail, I think.

Lawd, BUTT AND THIGHS! OH MY:0

 

I really need to get serious about my weight. I except my size but they way I look in clothes need improving. I hang some of my clothes up I have over ten pair of pants I can't fit. I am also tire of my scrubs fitting how they fit. I am what you call a break house. (Small top and big bottom). I am 30 now, I need to get busy. I have issue with committing to things. I let stress and etc keep me from achieving. I keep seeing people year ago and now.  I need to be healthy. It's time to take care of me and my health. So I weigh 270 just a guest.

1. I need to buy a scale
2. Hit the gym up again 3 times a week and walking
3. Pray for stay focus
4. Start small

It is time!!!!

Busy Bee!

Ok, today was busy as usual. It is amazing when you are by yourself without drama. The stuff you get done is golden and then you get this" all my GOD you are so quiet" hmm yeah work need to done. You see, I can multi task my but off. If everybody take some time and stop playing and focus, work won't be so swap/ stressful at work. #justsayin

Feeling not wanted or just get over it!

      Well, today is the day really feels like disappearing. (Really my first post and this is what I am thinking) Yep! Just go somewhere and not tell anyone. I am so tired it is not funny. I will never expect my life to be this way. I do blame my parents for that. (May they RIP)? My mother always installs responsibilities but never told me to not be mat. I do put my foot down but I begin to see the risk in that. I don't care if people get in there feeling but Why all that!  People want you to stop the world for them and when table turn not there. I see it more than ever. It like why I am here? I feel like convenience for people. I shouldn't have to walk on egg shells. Here the kicker LOL once I speak up or address an issue, I have attitude problem. Really damn if I do, damn if I don't. I set there at work upset about everything. Work really pisses me off today. REALLY, I DON'T FEEL APPREHAITED. I feel like people use me for want they want. I am very helpful to people, love it:) Getting tired, again. Really need to make change, ASAP! I am missing out. Tried seeing everyone out getting their and I am on the side waiting. GET IN THE GAME. I need people to think for there self not me think for them. Well, Today is today and tomorrow is better.
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